Sunday, December 14, 2014

Hospice for the holidays

Unfortunately it's that time, suddenly. We were expecting and hoping for a good recovery, but it's one thing after another and a Friday emergency room visit proved to be the catalyst.
More growths on the intestines, liver and brain. Blood clot in the leg. Other things perhaps elsewhere. Mother in law said that was enough, no more prodding, poking or tests. Make her comfortable.

She is still talkative but you can see her fading away in strength and it's just a matter of time. Everyone is talking about the good times, the recent good times, the old times, the time she swam nude in a hotel pool and noticed some Swedish Navy guys checking her out through the glass doorway (it wasn't a nude pool).

So it's good and it's sad. The holidays haven't been "happy" since my Dad passed away, this makes them worse for both of us. We agreed that I'll take care of things at home and work so everyone else can focus on the last few days. Today I was at the hospital most of the day, brought up some cranberry bliss bars from Starbucks and then we got some hot dogs and french fries. She isn't on a restricted diet anymore and if you want cookies for breakfast, you get cookies!

I say that we can only do the best with the time we are given. I also say that I hope we can all be so strong, and capable of making our own decisions when the time comes. There is a family meeting in about 30 minutes that I'm not attending. There are enough people there, and I've already gotten the last wishes and other things from Father in law.

Honestly, I can only grieve and cry so much and I need to be strong for everyone. I'll have my moment when the time is right, probably on the side of a mountain. She had an amazing life, traveled around the world, had anything she ever needed and wanted, 4 children and 3 grandchildren.

I'll be back in a few days, maybe longer. Merry Christmas in case I don't get back to posting before then. Remind your family how much you love them.


Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Mid Week and almost mid December

Rock is hogging the couch and being snarky but I wanted to finish a book, blog and then we will head out for another hike. Such are the days in our life, hard to complain about anything.

But I will!

How about this:

It's not an adjustment for "amount allowed by insurance", it's simply an adjustment that the Hospital can't explain. They say healthcare is affordable and for a week in the hospital for Mother-in-law, that's not a bad amount to pay (the $3k). I'm sure it's a "write-off" they will get back in taxes. Just toss some random figures around please.

Rock and I heading to the cabin this afternoon. He sure loves his rides and hanging his big block head out the window. We made a few stops to water some bushes and enjoy the sun. It was in the low 60's at home, and low 50's at the cabin. It's cooled off a lot already and the fire is going to help offset the utility bill.
Yes, it was a beautiful day, and one of the Amish horses was saying hello. Rock was very polite as we hiked past on our first hike of the day. Several more to come, getting the heart rate up a little is better than what most people end up doing on a daily basis. I need new shoes, my cabin running shoes are run and hiked out.
I brought my full size rifle down and left the SBR at home. I checked the bore-sight and found the EoTech to be off by almost a foot at 80 feet or so. I knew it wasn't accurate, I need to put some lock-tote on the mount it simply won't stay tight. The laser cartridge bore sights are invaluable for a fast fix.

We did get the holiday lights up and the Christmas tree on Sunday, I'll dig up some photo's of that for my next post. No cabin this weekend since it's our holiday party for work. With 170 employee's, I'm going to be handing out gift cards that total up to about $30,000. It's great to work for business owners that really care about the employee's, it says a lot. It's also fun to sort of be in charge, most of the time, but that's a lot of responsibility as well. Enjoying it while I'm able and allowed.

Sunday, December 7, 2014

Sleep returns (sort of), shooting and other tidbits

The nasal allergy spray is working, I'm officially 90% better after 4 days and that's an incredible thing. As with most things in life, there are trade offs and with my return to sleep is my return to dreaming. Some might think this is a good thing, but there are demons in my subconscious and they really are enjoying my rediscovered ability to sleep for a few hours at a time.
I know that when I open my eyes and walk outside covered in nightmare sweat that at least I can breathe and know what reality and the present situation are.

At the cabin, as usual, and the full moon was really just amazing. Rock and I got some hiking in, checked out the mountains and local wildlife. We've already put in 9 miles and we have the rest of today still. I'm the only one out of bed right now, with Mother in Law being sick I'm not complaining when somebody sleeps in. Instead I find ways to be productive, including picking up dog crap from the driveway and around the deck (not Rock's).... it's a good thing I love animals and work on being patient/understanding.

Sunrise!
 Sunrise hike, Rock see's every little creature.
 During our sunrise hike some quick bread was cooking. Flour, sugar, buttermilk, egg, baking soda, baking powder, butter, cinnamon. It tastes really good, but it doesn't look the best to me. I had some herbal tea and a rather large slice while I was reading blogs.

I met a couple of friends for some shooting last Sunday, we are getting together again this Sunday as well. We spent about 4 hours shooting, calling out targets, creating scenarios, etc. It takes time to not only ensure safety, but to check all the targets and cover each hole after a person is done with whatever thing we dreamed up. Some of it's very realistic, some of it's fun, all of it's possible. My aim wasn't on like usual (pistol at 50-70 feet) but I quickly adjusted and ended up being the champ at suppression fire while moving. I'll take back my pistol title next weekend.

The weather yesterday was fairly cold still, today it should be in the 50's. Perfect for hanging Christmas lights and getting the tree all decorated. Up the road from the cabin is this great sign, I can close my eyes and visualize a large Buffalo herd grazing under the watchful eye of the mountains.
 Rock still looks for the Buffalo....
 Black Friday sales were taken advantage of. In addition to $1100 in long term food storage, I decided to get another optic that I can place on my AR10. I love my EoTech on the AR-15 but for some reason decided to change it up a little. I got the cover installed to help break up the silhouette a little. I also have some multi cam and highlander furniture for the AR-15 due in this week.

Our work holiday party is Saturday night so I'll be there handing out all kinds of gift cards to everyone. Some cards are for each year, some are for every 5 years and some are for the entry level employee's to help them out a little more. I'll be getting an Amazon and Walmart gift card, rumor has it I'm getting a year end bonus sometime this month as well.
If that's the case we are talking about redoing the carpet here at the cabin and getting a new water heater for the in town house. We shall see, a bonus is never expected and the amount is never known.

Have a great week!

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

Allergy testing, finally

I like to think I'm a strong person, but we all have breaking points. I don't mind mouth breathing, I don't even mind not sleeping... I just can't take all of it at once AND a raw nose.

It turns out I'm allergic to some common mold (found normally in soil), a few tree's and almost all of the grass in Colorado. All the time I've spent at both houses working on the yards and gardens has been a set up for failure. I'm luckily not allergic to pet dander or dust, etc. so I'm looking on the bright side.
I have some junk to spray up my nose each evening. Last night was the first time and it made me miserable, worse than just having an allergy attack. I'm committed to giving it a good try before I give in, I'm hoping it will get better. I'm also going to get some shots to eventually (hopefully) be cured. If the nasal spray works I'll be happy since it's over the counter (just released) and I can stock up on it.

Here are a couple of shots from this past weekend at the cabin. I was there by myself, there are complication with Mother-in-law, so we aren't getting to spend much time together. No worries, family is important and I'm more than capable of getting into trouble on my own. We did find out that MIL is probably over medicated so we will see if a reduction in meds will help over the next few days. We are, as always, very hopeful and yet realistic. I find solitude and comfort in the outdoors.


and Rock.
In this first photo Rock is trying to use the force to levitate my chicken and broccoli to his mouth.
 This photo is a sad and depressed Rock, he want's to go outside and play and I just want to get up to date on the walking dead.
 You can see the grass in the yard is still green, and that's why my allergies are being angry. Rock does have two toys in his mouth. Champion.

I received all of my long term food storage that we ordered on Black Friday. It's heading to the cabin tonight and I'll get it sorted out this weekend. Work is pretty overwhelming but we will be up about 18% year over year so we are pushing for a strong finish. I also want to buy a new Range Rover, someone slap some sense into me.

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

The positives of negative

I've never been one to really care about the outside temperature, but when you are in a relationship there is the other half of your life to take into consideration. I'm the only one who doesn't care if it's cold outside (or wet, hot, etc.) when it's time to go outdoors. Since it's winter, I layer and head on out to do whatever activity is needed/desired. I just can't sit still unless I'm reading a book and even then it feels as if I'm "burning daylight".
We woke up on Sunday together and watched the snow falling outside the window. Rock was leaping all over the place as I put my boots on and we headed out. While the snow was a fresh 2 inches at the cabin, it didn't accumulate anywhere else. Outside of the protection of the tree's, the wind does get nasty and blow everything somewhere else (Kansas?). With wind chill it was around -10 but Rock and I didn't care.
We did finally remember to test out our two way radio's to figure out distances from mobile areas to base camp. Rock and I went out a mile in each direction and had no problems with the elevation or tree's interfering with communication. Cell phone reception is spotty at best so we now have a way of communicating. I always try to have a means of communication with me at all times, even if it's just my search and rescue call for help GPS.
Pumpkin brownie's were cooked up (10 minute cook time is awesome) so we would have a semi healthy sweet snack. I'm not really into sweets anymore for some reason, just another change in my body I suppose. It would be fantastic to have the allergies vanish but that's asking a lot. We had blueberry muffins on Sunday and pancakes on Saturday. Traditions after all, must be upheld. We aren't getting to spend a lot of time together, Mother-in-law isn't doing so well. We sent her back to the emergency room yesterday via. ambulance. She has a UTI and it's causing her to revert to very childish behavior due to a high bacteria count that is apparently somewhat common. The good news is the brain lesions aren't bigger and one is even smaller. Holding out hope as always.



Few more photo's from some hikes. It was colder and the wind wasn't friendly, probably -15 or lower and honestly only bothersome when I turned around heading back home. I put in 10+ miles of hiking and even got a great run done on Saturday. The run was in shorts and a tank top as usual, 56 degrees so I was taking advantage of every ray of sunshine. I really need a day of doing nothing, perhaps Thanksgiving will be that day but I doubt it, perhaps I'll save my rest days for Cancun in January.

Apparently there is rioting and such going on. I don't watch TV or read the news so I'm clueless, Instead of rioting and burning stuff down last night I went to the gym. I maxed out the seated shoulder press machine finally. I enjoy the seated machine as it helps isolate my shoulders and keeps my back from being arched.

Enjoy the week.

Thursday, November 20, 2014

Rock, Paper, Scissors

Let's start with pictures from the last week at the cabin. It was "warm" this week. It's going to hit almost 50 today, I'm heading down tomorrow again with a friends family so they can check out "base camp" for some epic adventures to follow this year. These pictures are from various times of the days, unfortunately there was no awesome sky color with the sunsets, but that's a product of having clear skies.





Stepping out of my comfort zone a little, I signed up for a rock, paper, scissors tournament hosted by a local non-profit. I was late, my workout ran overtime but I showed up and lost, and lost again. I was placed into the losers bracket for a chance at redemption and after many threats, shouts and even throwing a chair around I took third place overall. Much fun was had by all and I won a haircut and shave for a prize. Score, I am looking ragged. I think I played a total of 12 times and even knocked a lady out of the competition who had initially beaten me (and was talking shit anytime I was playing).
Rock is missing his cabin time hikes so there has been extra love given, and received.
Finally found some good .308 magazine pouches. These are for a SCAR-H but they were a perfect fit. Now I wish I had opted for the 6 magazine configuration instead of the 4. Just glad I finally decided try and find some pouches, a plastic grocery bag just isn't tact-cool nor efficient.
Busy season at work trying to get everything finalized for this year and set up for next. Working on getting hundreds of gift cards for employee's for the holiday party and making sure bonuses are turned in and paid on time. Not sure if I'll be getting a bonus but we will replace the carpet at the cabin if so. I never expect it so there isn't disappointment if one isn't received.

Have a great weekend.

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Do you sleep in?

I slept in this morning since I was alone this weekend. I suppose that's what it would be called. 05:30 I was staring out the bedroom door trying to get the fire going with mental powers. That obviously didn't work so I just pulled the comforter up and lay around thinking what fun projects I would do today. I actually let myself lay around until 07:30 when the sun started to lift over the trees. It was -1 degree outside.

Yesterday I went for a run in shorts and a t-shirt. I had sun, wind, snow and hail to battle but overall it was an amazing run. There wasn't any snow on the road or trail. This is what the cabin property looked like around 14:00:
This morning told a different story when I opened the bay window curtains.
 No problem, I needed another workout (actually I need to give myself a break but I just can't). I got the fire going, made some tea (black tea and carob) and grabbed a quick breakfast. I spent an hour shoveling and getting the car cleared of snow, it was about an 8 inch accumulation but was fluffy for easy work. It warmed up to 4 degree's but it didn't matter as I worked up a good sweat.
All done, time to get some more cardio! Grabbed my pack and headed out to enjoy the beauty of snow. This spot is always beautiful, the sideways tree is healthy it just grew that way. I think it makes for a great backdrop, we will probably get someone to take our picture there eventually.
 On the left is Mount Humboldt and right center is Colony Baldy.
 I was hunting wabbits! I think everyone hunkers down when it snows, and that's a perfect time to get out and enjoy nature without people (or tire tracks).
 Looking West. The roads aren't all maintained so people tend to contribute to a communal plow vehicle that stays at the end of the roads. We would have already had the entire thing plowed but I think they only use it in really deep snow since this plow hasn't move the last 2 storms.
 Same two mountains as above. You can see that the wind doesn't mess around up on the ridge and it was around -4 degrees with windchill where I was standing. I had to take off my hat as I was overheating going uphill but when I turned around and went downslope I needed it again.
 You can see that someone dared interrupt my alone time and made tire tracks. They didn't know what to think of me but we both waved hello anyhow. I didn't use the tire tracks, that's too easy. Yes, I know the patterns don't match but I'm not trying to make a fashion statement, just layer correctly. I could always break out the snow camo and winter ghillie suit....
Back home! I found a white and gray cat near the woodshed as I stalked my own property line. There is plenty for a cat to eat around here and they help keep the rodents down. If it becomes a cat invasion, that will change our thinking.


We hope everyone is enjoying Sunday. There is the second batch of salsa for the day getting ready to be canned, pumpkin brownies need to get made, laundry done and then it's elk burgers for the tummy! I also have a date with a foam roller.